A few weeks ago, when I was in Manchester for healing sessions, two of my clients and one of my colleagues talked about being drawn to wear a different type of clothes. This is an experience I've had at different times in my life, including when I was recovering from ME / CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome) – and now looks like a good time to talk about it.
Both of my clients in different ways were talking about how as they are changing, they feel drawn to different types of clothes, or that their old clothes no longer represent who they are somehow. The first woman had been suffering from extreme fatigue, lethargy and inability to motivate herself (no doubt quite a few of you with CFS / ME can relate to those symptoms.) clothes – and now, receiving the healings, and feeling a lot better, this is reflected in a renewed interest in how she looks.
I can really relate to this experience. When I was first ill with CFS / ME, I was not at all interested in how I looked, what type of clothes I was wearing – and did not have the energy or inclining to look for new clothes anyway! For me, beginning to be interested in clothes again was a sign that I was more well.
My second client has been seeing me because she feels that there must be more to life than she had been experiencing – she felt somehow as she was just “getting through” her life rather than really enjoying it. As she experiences more energy and enthusiasm for life, she is finding that she wants to wear a different style of clothes to be more in tune with who she is becoming.
This is also my own personal experience. At a certain point in my recovery journey, not only was I interested in clothes and my appearance again – it just felt as though I could not bear to wear the clothes that I had been wearing. Somehow, it felt all wrong – as though they were not “me” any more.
And I suppose that clothes do show to the world who we are, or who we aspire to be. And this is what the third person, my college was talking about. She was saying that she is beginning to dress for who she wants to become, and the energy that she would like to be bringing into her life.
So, I suppose that we choose clothes for how we are feeling, and we also choose them for what we would like to become. In other words, our energy chooses the clothes, and we can also be transformed by the energy of the clothes.
People often ask me if there was a moment when I knew I was “better.” And I think when I was first ill, I used to imagine that one day I would just wake up and be back to “normal.” In fact, it was not like this at all for me. It was more that I would notice things gradually changing in my life.
I would notice that I was able to see more people, that I was not thinking so much about how many times I was going up and down the stairs, as I had the energy to do it as many times as I would like, and that I was more interested in things outside of myself – like what I was wearing, and even having a different haircut! And these signs grow and grow until I and the people around me realized I was “better.”
And what has happened since that point is that I've become more well, more alive and enjoy my life more and more. I believe that this is a lot because I continue to receive healings, and to prioritize using the healing tools I am writing about.